How Rejecting Creationism Led to Deep Spiritual Crisis

My Spiritual Crisis (Part 1)

Sometimes a crisis moment occurs that changes something about us forever. Today, I will share such a moment from my life—how I experienced the loss of God.

I was a creationist. Growing up a fundamentalist, and later being an evangelical, I had no qualms about creationism and the global flood, and I accepted that the Bible taught both in Genesis. I also believed in ‘defending the faith’ and I was good at it. However, I did not like sloppy and inadequate materials that did not address the real issues of evolution, so when the creation-science movement came to prominence in the 1970s, I was ecstatic.

When I was an Enthusiastic Creationist

Creation-science teaches that God created separate species (kinds) that do not change except within their created limits; one species does not evolve into other species. All species were represented at the creation event. Therefore, man did not evolve from earlier species but was specially created by God, and man lived together with all species, including dinosaurs, in early earth.

creationism - dinosaurs with humansThe flood of Noah is understood to be a world-wide (global) flood in which all people and all non-aquatic animals were killed except for the representatives on the ark. This flood accounts for the geographical strata we find throughout the earth today.

I was excited by these new books, particularly The Genesis Flood by Henry M. Morris and John C. Whitcomb, and they inspired me to develop a novel about the global flood; I still think my story was quite creative! One thing that bothered me, though, was the insistence of these authors on a young earth—an earth created no earlier than about 10,000 years ago; I thought insistence on literal 24-hour days of creation was unnecessary since a ‘day’ might have represented any length of time.

Questioning Creationism

Over the next many years, I consumed these books but began to have doubts. My doubt resulted not from evolutionary proofs but from the creation-science books, themselves. As I continued to read, I began to ask, ‘Is this all we have? Are these our best arguments?’

I also wondered how the Genesis writer knew such detail about what happened at the beginning of time. Could the stories have been passed down from Adam generation-by-generation? I spent many sleepless nights with this problem until I concluded it was impossible for such stories to remain intact for the time required between Adam and Moses, and I thought it unlikely that God would dictate the stories directly to Moses so he could include them in Genesis.

I still had no inclination to accept evolution, though it was a reasonable and consistent system, because there were gaps in the theory. But I began to wonder what the Genesis creation and flood stories could mean if they were not what I had understood them to be.

Then in 1993, I read a commentary that demonstrated that the stories were written to counter similar Mesopotamian stories in which, for example, warfare among the gods resulted in the earth being created from the corpse of the vanquished. The Genesis stories, instead, depicted the creator as an orderly and thoughtful God rather than a chaotic group of super-beings.

This seemed very reasonable to me: the Genesis creation story should not be read as history but as a different genre—a corrective tract against crude Mesopotamian mythology. This change in my perspective was not difficult. Though I accepted the authority of ‘scripture’, I already understood the importance of reading texts in their proper genre; I had previously abandoned dispensationalism in part due to my respect for apocalyptic genre.

Rejecting Creationism Leads to a Deep and Unexpected Crisis

However, I soon experienced the greatest crisis of my spiritual life. Leaving creationism led to an unexpected development in which I underwent more than a year of deep depression and agony as I grieved the loss of God. It was my darkest period.

I describe that dark period in My Spiritual Crisis (Part 2).

Articles in this series: My Spiritual Crisis

How Rejecting Creationism Led to Deep Spiritual Crisis
Grieving the Loss of God
Discovering Jesus as the Foundation of All My Belief


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15 Responses to How Rejecting Creationism Led to Deep Spiritual Crisis

  1. Peggy Witt says:

    Hurry up…I want to read the NEXT one.


    • Tim Chastain says:

      Thanks Peggy! It is scheduled for Monday.


    • 1999att says:

      Why are you so apt to take this person’s word?? So he spent many sleepless nights contemplating whether or not history can be past down over such a long time (much wisdom in his cushy short life). His conclusion is , that it is UNREASONABLE….ok and now that Mesopotamians have a story to cause doubt (that obviously had to have been past down over centuries maybe millennia) it proves his point lol…absurd. you are saying scripture cannot be passed down accurately but in the SAME BREATH you cite as evidence an equally “unreasonably” “passed” down story as EVIDENCE…you cant have it both ways….but some are on the wrong side, and are trying to deceive you…they want you to believe in God is only love…but there is a battle going on for our souls. its not fun happy or pretty but it is real…please lord help us


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  4. Lana says:

    Perfect example!


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  8. Seeker says:

    Hey, is that an A.C.E. picture??

    And yes, when we start to question what we’ve always been taught, it would seem there is always that nagging and guilt-ridden “I can’t afford to be wrong” and somehow thinking that even questioning it is a near blasphemy. It’s definitely a scary process at times!

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    • jesuswithoutbaggage says:

      Seeker, yes, that picture is from ACE curriculum. Did you homeschool with ACE?

      And you are right about it being scary to question what you have been taught–it can be devastating! But it is also a first step to freedom. But ‘What if you re wrong?’ works both ways. Asking ‘What if my old beliefs are wrong?’ is just as valid asking ‘What if my developing thoughts are wrong?’ But we HAVE been taught that questioning our doctrinal tradition is near (or outright) blasphemy.


      • Seeker says:

        No sir (well briefly when I was a kid), I worked in an apostolic church-school that used ACE. I just quit a couple months ago and pulled my kids out. I still believe in creationism in that regard (not a debate I want to go into at this time), but there are other aspects of
        more extreme fundamentalism that I saw in the curriculum and the school itself. I’m sure they meant well.

        It’s scary, but I’m hopeful. Thank you for responding. I’ve been researching like crazy this universal reconciliation stuff. I look at my child sleeping and I cant imagine that Jesus loves only children, but also somehow most people will go to hell? How can we ever be sure we arent one of the damned for making one mistake or having an incorrect understanding? And nobody seems to answer the question of ‘what about those who dont understand the Gospel?’ usually ends with a pat answer. Does forever hell mean that GOD has somehow allowed all these creatures to exist but then knows already most are hell-bound? How can one fully 100% trust and love a God like that?

        Now I’ve always wanted to know GOD. Even as a child, I thought I could know Him personally. So my heart has always yearned to know the Living GOD who is real and tangible. But fear is a killer of hope.

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      • Seeker says:

        If the Gospel is so simple that we are to come to Him as little children… and little children are so innocent… then how is it innocence can entertain ideas of forever hell without that innocence being shattered?

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